“Do I detect an accent?” “Where are you from?”

I cannot even tell you how often I have had that question over the many years since I moved away from where I was born and raised. And I am not the only one. The majority of people hear that when they move abroad or while traveling abroad. You would think it is a natural and innocent question or conversation starter when meeting new people, and most don’t really mean anything by it. I usually politely respond because that is what is expected. Still, I am getting tired of the same question and answer. It has become almost robotic, and, to be honest, I am sometimes a bit disappointed in myself for answering as expected. Because more and more, I get annoyed by the question, find it a bit rude even, and what it really means, and I want to answer in a different, intelligent way. So I have made a deal with myself I will do next time. “Why?” I hear you say? Of course the easy way out would be, when I answer with what is expected so the questioner can feel safe and then go about their business again. Or they can relate and say they have been on holiday there or know people from that same country. Yes, and? You have established my accent, bravo. Seriously, I just don’t identify with where I come from. I don’t feel that it says much about me at all. Because I like to think I am not defined by a country or a culture and its people in specific, its beliefs, religion, traditions, or anything else. At one point, perhaps it has shaped me in some way or another, and I am not averse to saying every country has its own energy and resonance, and it rubs off on its native people for sure, and there might even be something like Dutch direct and openness, German practicality, polite Japanese, Greek drama, English (and also French) arrogance, or North American entitlement because of the history of these specific countries or areas and the people who have come to be like that. And I am not talking about nationalism here or traditions, language, or religion, or politics to be clear. I respect each and every ones background and ties with a certain culture and pride as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone else. I mean, it is still conditioning of course and a whole other subject I could write about: national pride and the rights and wrongs of that.It serves a purpose to be born in a certain country and with a family for our life’s lessons. On some occasions, it could explain why a person behaves in a certain way, especially if they are not fully aware yet. And we know it doesn’t mean all people born in such and such a country or area are like this or that. It is too limiting. WE limit ourselves in thinking like that as we are immediately judging someone and where they are from, and that is what I am averse to: the petty judgment. You don’t know me, so why should I tell you where I am from? Really, I am trying to avoid your judgment. Not out of fear, as I don’t really care what other people think of me, but because it is not the whole truth, and as a Libra, I will always strive for the truth. I personally have come too far on my own journey to have realized I am much more than which country I am from, or which village or town. My personality is no longer this or that because of where I spent my first twenty years or so. So next time, I will answer more truthfully with something like, “I am from the stars, like you, like all of us. I am a spark, a fractal of Source, and have come to Earth to experience this life, this story in this human body as my vessel, and with the parents and country I have chosen to be born in at the time. I am 48, my parents have passed a while ago, I have learned what I needed, and I have long since moved away to follow my personal path and continue to learn and experience in this physical realm.”Not sure what the response will be, but it might trigger an actual conversation, not just a surface-level, shallow one. I do find it hard to make light conversation, and as you might guess, I struggle with small talk. Occasionally, I meet interesting people, especially here on the Greek island I have moved to, where you can meet people who travel and are more open to these things. “We are souls having a human experience,” Edgar Cayce once said. Indeed, the human experience is one of the most interesting but also most difficult of all, especially here on Earth among so many other people with different beliefs, upbringing, race, gender, and species. It is a melting pot where conflict and suffering are very easy to arise because of our differences. And we so easily forget our similarities and common origin.It is, therefore, humbling to remind ourselves that what truly defines us is not where we come from in a materialistic way, of soil and earth, of boundaries, blood, and DNA alone. We are much more than that. Where do our souls originate, our consciousness, and where do we go after this and many other experiences every one should ask? Stop limiting ourselves by placing yourself in a box. Only once stripped of every illusion, condition, dogma, and restriction that each culture and society has placed upon us can we truly find ourselves and be free.We have to start asking different questions when we meet new people. I don’t find it so intrusive if people ask me where I live for example or where my home is as that is perhaps more temporary and less personal for me as it has nothing to do with my roots. Also, don’t always ask what people do, for example. That is another thing that doesn’t necessarily define us. Unfortunately, only a minority really makes a living doing what they love and follow their heart or bliss. I am one of those people who do. This subject actually ties in with the current book I am writing, which is called ‘Cradle of The Stars – Origins.’ It is the prequel to the Comyenti Series. In this case, I do believe that to understand the comyentis fully, one must know where they came from or where they have been. Their planet, what it was like, and how it has shaped them. They are, of course, a different humanoid species than the humans they encounter on Bhan with their super skills and sensitivities, so I explore just how different they are, or were, as they have adapted to Bhan over time as we can read in book 1 and 2. In doing so, I find some similarities too. Therefore, this prequel is stripping them bare and exposing the raw versions of who and what this species is all about. We are, after all, shaped by our past and all our experiences above all, and our consciousness and every decision we make truly creates our reality. But how we respond to situations is ultimately what defines us, or as Finch said in the movie Finch: “Things will happen to you. Things that you cannot control. Raw emotion will find you. When it does, how you deal with it, what you do, will define who you are. It happens to all of us, whether we want it or not.”

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A STRANGE BEGINNING: A STAND-ALONE Biographical NOVEL (The Lord Byron Series Book 1)

Gretta Curran Brown

“My name alone shall be my epitaph.” — BYRON

This book is a biographical, historical novel and covers Lord Byron’s life from the age of 10 to his early 20s. If you love series such as Poldark and Downtown Abbey this book is perfect for you!

The author has done substantial research on Byron’s life so that makes it all the more worthwhile.

The story starts with 10-year-old George Gordon (Byron) living in Aberdeen, Scotland with his unstable Scottish mother and her servant. He uses his mother’s surname, Gordon, since his father, Lord Byron, had lost all his money and left when he was little, promised to return, but died with debts, leaving his wife and son without much means of support. George doesn’t know about his true English aristocracy yet until later. His mother was abusive physically and emotionally manipulative and his servant sexually abused him. To add to his troubles, Byron was born with one deformed foot for which he gets bullied by other children. Life was miserable for him until the 5th Baron Byron of Rochdale, England, declared him his heir. The requirement was that the boy took the surname Byron in order to obtain his inheritance. When he dies, young George traveled to England as the rightful heir and lord. George from then on lived with his mother and servants at Newstead Abbey, an estate in Nottinghamshire that was the Byron ancestral home. He was sent to the best schools, Harrow and Cambridge, and adjusted to a life of leisure for the first time. From then on he finds himself friends and when he comes back home he falls in love with the girl next door, Mary, though they can never marry as she is promised to another man of wealth and status, yet it is his love for her that fuels all his romantic poetry for the rest of his life.

It is a well-written, fascinating and enjoyable read and I found myself wanting to know more and warmed up to George who is intelligent, steadfast, likable, kind, and humble. I loved learning about his early life and his love for animals and nature and his warm, poetic heart, and to read some of his inspirations for his poetry, as well as his travels abroad to countries such as Portugal, Albania, Turkey, and Greece. I would recommend this book for fans of period dramas, biographies, and fans of Lord Byron’s poetry or poets in general in the late 18^th century.

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When Fay and Zemandu — two powerful women of a very different nature, yet both the last of their kind — cross paths, they’ll forever change the course of humanity, but at what cost?

Suspenseful, romantic, and seeped in Irish myth and magic, ‘The Cursed’ captures a dramatic (young) adult lesbian-fairytale twist on ‘Lir’s Children’ and the power of love, hope, and patience.

When beautiful but lonely Iras of the Bear tribe sees a bright star in the night sky she soon disappears without a trail. Aponi, a Pawnee outcast, comes across the clan and hears about Iras’ mysterious vanishing. She decides to start an investigation of her own. Her search takes her up the mountain where an old woman gives her clues. 

Will one of the mysterious guests of the Queen Mother Xi Wang Mu’s birthday know of a way to end Xian’s immortality or will she have to live on until eternity with her painful memories?

Born with both male and female gender traits Yarden never truly belonged to either sex or wanted to conform just to be able to “fit in”. Living and working as a travelling artist, Yarden tries to avoid the masses as much as possible.
One day, Jalmaz appears and the artists’ world gets turned upside-down.

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The Seep

Chana Porter

“I’ll tell you a secret. This is something no one else knows. But you’re my oldest and dearest friend and I want to share this with you. This isn’t my real face.”

To me, a good book has to have a few essential things apart from style and it being well-written: believable characters with flaws and emotions, a good plot that is going somewhere, good world-building, and above all a powerful change. A change that has lessons to learn from. I have come across books that have all of the above, they just tick all the boxes, but that book list however will only fit on one-page maximum despite all my reading. There are books that are simply enjoyable and light and I may take something out of them for one reason or another, again other books I might like and will recommend despite not wanting to read them again, yet others are breath-taking and simply amazing. It is those books that have a lasting impact on me and to those, I will return for comfort or as a reminder of what I loved about them in the first place. It’s like love affairs! The difference between flings, infatuations, and true lasting love!

I read a lot. I mean, a lot. I get withdrawal symptoms if I don’t! Books are my salvation, my comfort, my teachers, my soul food. But I am choosy when it comes to which books I read, even more so over time. I can no longer read books with too much violence, abuse, murder, scary stuff, or even boring romance without a good storyline or a decent message. It was Stephen King who said there are 3 functions of storytelling: entertainment, escapism, and education. For me, that rings true, books also have to resonate with me, as if they speak to me personally and to my soul and the path I am currently on. Sometimes I don’t even finish a book if it doesn’t hold my attention past twenty percent, or the characters are too weak or if I don’t like them, there is unnecessary violence, or if the plot is lacking so I skip to the end to find out what happened often confirming my reservations about the book. I mean, why waste my time, right? Some might say I miss out on really great books this way, but I don’t know, my instinct is often right. And everybody is different, what may be a great book to me might not for you and vice-versa. Despite it being well-written, it has to grab me. I suppose that is why there is such a thing as a rating system on platforms such as Amazon and Goodreads. Some good books deserve three or four stars and they may still be good books, but they lack something that your most beloved books don’t. It is a personal opinion after all. And that may change over time because we change. I may have read some books I absolutely adored when growing up, or when I was a young adult, and which were meaningful at the time, but when I reread them now, it won’t be the same and that is fine. So…let me tell you about…THE SEEP by Chana Porter.

THE SEEP is one of those rare finds that have become one of my favourite top reads to cherish already and I couldn’t stop talking about it for days! It is one of those rare, gorgeous treats you just want to indulge yourself in and you don’t want it to end. It’s a book that is already recognised by the literary world and it has received numerous awards since its release last year. Everything is just right with this book: the feelings portrayed by the main characters, the style, the dry humour, the raw emotions of loss and not wanting to let go of what is familiar and safe, a study of what identity is, and the impossibility of perfection. It is a utopian near-futuristic novella and weird at times but all in a good way, not like an Octavia Butler book for example, as nothing is too obscure like in most other utopian or alien invasion books. It’s not a long read but it feels longer and I like that! I read this with an open mind and everything made perfect sense to me especially because everything feels so familiar. This is our life and this is what could happen if presented with this kind of experience to people. That is why I love speculative fiction so much. It explores all possibilities.

The main character is Tina, a fifty-year-old Native-American transwoman and likable and easy to identify with regardless of the reader’s own gender or sexuality. She has been married to Deeba for a while and lives a good life with friends. They drink, they party, they have meaningful conversations. When alien beings without a physical body come to Earth in the form of a substance that can enable psychic bonds between all living matter, whereby you can be transformed into anything imaginably. Humans can turn into other species, or give themselves animal-like qualities like horns and scales and wings; they can become other genders or ethnicities, and they can even take on the very faces of people they know and admire. A great many people are concerned about what that might mean for the world and the human way of life. Some people choose to live in special compounds designed for them and continue life as if the aliens have not come at all. The compounds are co-created by the humans and the benevolent aliens who are known as The Seep who only wished to give humanity as many different choices in life as possible so that all beings may be free, happy, and at peace. The hive-like aliens have done this by adding chemicals to the water supply that alter people’s personalities and the chemical structures that make up their bodies and the rest of the organic materials on Earth. Suddenly, our planet is peaceful, blissful, capitalism is gone, hierarchies are broken down, violence is gone, separation is gone and all things are possible… but instead of Earth becoming a utopia, it becomes a orgiastic love fest where everyone is just part of a seething mass of modified bodies writhing together towards some hazy idea of what is good. The concept is clever, even the execution of it. It reminded me of the sixties hippies on drugs raving about transcendence without really grasping it, but rather losing themselves.

Tina is one of the rare people who still, twenty years later, doesn’t really fully embrace this new change especially as her wife of many years announces she wants to become a baby (!) and leaves her to begin her new life in the South of France with Persian parents. Tine is heartbroken since in the whole, identity is so crucial to her own experience, she is horrified by what she sees around her as a tremendously insensitive act of mass misuse and of course because she loses her wife. We follow her as she grieves like a widow and slowly tries to find herself again amidst a world that has turned upside down. Understandably she is seeking revenge against someone who is using The Seep in an evil way, someone who used to be her friend, and a young boy who is untouched by The Seep she needs to protect from him. I loved the pamphlet The Seep talks through and that could read her mind. It is the closest we come to talking and understanding the aliens.

Above all the story is an exploration of what it really means to be human as explored through the eyes of an entity that is not.

“People need to give each other space to make choices. We can’t live solely for other people. Even if it hurts them. Even when it breaks your heart.”

“I’ve come to understand that all things are letters. That is, all words are messages, and all actions are known and recorded, in some way or another.”

“We’re only on this planet to grow and change, and sometimes that can only happen through struggle.”

It’s great to see a science-fiction work that features an older woman of color who is LGBT+, as a lot of popular science-fiction books tend to feature younger, heterosexual white heroes and heroines.

I was also happy to find a short story at the end of the main story, so make sure you read that one if you want to find out more about one of the young protagonists mentioned in the main story called Aki, and his escape from one of the compounds. It is just as recommended! I can’t wait to find more books by the same author as this is her debut novel I really hope she will write more books about The Seeps, or other books similar! I am a new fan! You don’t have to be a fan of science fiction to enjoy this book. This is a book for our times. Read it!

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Holocaust Memoirs of a Bergen-Belsen Survivor : Classmate of Anne Frank

(Holocaust Survivor Memoirs World War II Book 9)

Nanette Blitz Konig

“I want to give voice to those who have been silenced and can non no longer share their stories and sorrow.”

I personally love memoirs as they give us insight into not only someone’s life but also a certain period in time. They are important as we can learn so much from people having lived through hardships we might only have heard of secondhand. As we read we can start to imagine what it must have been like and feel deeply connected and relate to the storyteller, but even more so if it’s a true story.

“Unfortunately, even though we often yell, “Never again!” the history of mankind continues to develop into wars -unjustified wars- that seem to forget how valuable life is. And that is why the Holocaust is still a very current topic that must be remembered forever.”

Being Dutch I grew up with Anne Frank’s diary and her story and WWII was still not that far back. My maternal grandmother told me about the bombs that ruined Rotterdam and how she would hide under the table every time during a thunderstorm for years after. My father was seven years old during the German occupation in the winter of ‘44 and my mother was just born. It was the worst and coldest winter and food was scarce as the Nazis blocked food deliveries to the cities. My father used to tell me how bad it was as they would dig up and eat tulip bulbs and suck on pebbles. His mother was carried off to the hospital from starvation symptoms. My mother as a baby was sent away, like some sick or malnourished children were, to the countryside, as it was also safer there away from the bombs as farmers had fresh vegetables and milk. Imagine on top of that you are Jewish and more and more restrictions are applied slowly during the occupation and things go from worse to worse. The hatred and persecutions that were ever-present. It was a time of fear, dread, and uncertainty that stained many lives long after.

“Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.”

This is not just another Holocaust book though as Nanette connects the past with the present and tries to warn and even wishfully prevent this from happening again by giving us insight into her life and the horrors she’s endured and seen during the war. This is a must-read witness report along with other stories of survivors of this horrible time in history so the events are never forgotten. If we don’t learn from past mistakes there is a greater likelihood that they will be repeated in the future. She lived in Amsterdam and went to the same school as Anne Frank and knew her personally, although that is not as important a fact as this in more Nanette’s story. Both girls meet again briefly when in Bergen-Belsen, a concentration camp where Jews systematically were being starved to death under the most dreadful conditions. Nanette’s father had a privileged position in a bank. Thus, when it became their family’s turn to get deported, they were not sent to Auschwitz, in Poland, but to Bergen-Belsen in North Germany. But it is not a privilege as we quickly learn, despite that the camp is divided into sections. She explains it vividly through younger eyes and how she quickly has to grow up as a young teenager without her immediate family for support, no way to clean herself, scarce food and water, horrible diseases, lice, the hours-long headcount every morning in every weather condition, and bodies piling up. The lack of freedom, the dignity, and humanity these people were stripped from is almost surreal. Also, at the same time, she has researched the facts well and tries to describe clearly how this all could have happened. in 1933, German citizens had democratically elected a leader who preached that the country should get rid of everything impure…”you cannot fully grasp it because you cannot comprehend that which exists cannot be comprehended…We were living in a fabricated reality without the right to react,” she warns all of us, “Society should be alarmed when ideology becomes so deep-seated that it supports barbarians with such an abominable purpose.”

It’s a story of genocide and survival against all odds. How many of us today could have gotten through the hell these innocent people were trapped in, all because they were Jewish, Gypsies, disabled, or gay?

“I never believed in the superiority of any single being when compared to others, because when we take away our particular aspects as far as culture and life, we all share the same core.”

We follow Nanette throughout her life at the camp and after its liberation by the British.  There were no gas chambers at Bergen- Belsen as the mass killings took place in the camps further east whereby millions lost their lives. Even so, it is estimated that more than 50.000 people suffered and died there due to malnourishment, disease, and mistreatments by the guards. The book is translated from Portuguese as she now resides in Brazil and it is her main language so it makes sense. She does repeat herself slightly throughout the book, but that could be for effect. I was fascinated by her story, her wisdom, and the educational value.

The book can be found HERE

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The Binding: A Novel

Bridget Collins

“Memories,’ she said, at last. ‘Not people, Emmett. We take memories and bind them. Whatever people can’t bear to remember. Whatever they can’t live with. We take those memories and put them where they can’t do any harm. That’s all books are”

I was so fortunate to have been given this book in its hardcover version. The cover is simply stunning! It really makes you want to read and cherish the book. Especially considered this is a novel about bookbinding they were spot on with the design! The story is just as magical and spell-binding.

‘The Binding’ by Bridget Collins is a #1 bestseller for good reasons and because it’s LGBTQI+ month I am posting my review! It is set in an alternative, rural England in a time much like the late 18^th century, though with magic thrown in.

It’s told in a first-person narrative and follows Emmett Farmer, a young man who is sent to an old, solitary Binder to become her apprentice. Books are forbidden as they all are real lived experiences from real people who, once sold, lose these memories, so they are kept hidden by Binders or sold on the black market and bought by those in power to abuse, torture or used as blackmail to ruin those without money or status. These books become like high-priced vaults. A buyer can go to a Binder to sell their memories or have unspeakable traumatic memories removed. For some it’s a salvation to have bad memories being taken away from you, for others it’s the last resort to be able to pay the rent. Too many visits to a Binder leaves someone hollow inside, emptied of the memories that made them unique and life worth living for.

Emmett learns he will become a protector or these books and turns out to be a gifted Binder. There are many questions raised which kept me guessing and wanting to read on. Why was Emmett rejected by his family and why does a customer called Lucian Darnay look so familiar and why is he so drawn to him? As Emmett learns his new trade and begins to settle in, he makes an astonishing discovery: a book with his name on it.

I absolutely loved this book! It started out like most other young adult fantasy books I’ve read with the reluctant hero versus grumpy teacher, and dark and moody at first, but it is not! The teacher turns out to be a gem and the main character more and more likable as well. There is the forbidden gay relationship twist as well which was tastefully and romantically done. This book is so much more than a coming-of-age novel and can be read by many readers. There are so many mysterious things going on, it makes you turn the pages to get the answers!

It is breath-taking and an absolute gem. The plot is intriguing with the only books in a world being not fiction, but real-life memories and forbidden, the world-building was not overly detailed as this book focusses more on feelings, the characters realistic and the mood of the book intense and wonderful. The writing is simply beautiful. The range of emotions is wide and portrays tenderness and deep affection. I could not put it down and when I did, it wouldn’t leave my mind. To me, those are the best books!

The book can be found HERE

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Throughout history people have sought after ways to gain immortality.
Some would stop at nothing to find and achieve this.
For the body to remain young and never to die . . .
Who, after all, wouldn’t want that?

Not Xian, who became immortal overnight after having mistakenly drunken an Elixir of Life, in ancient China. In fact, it is the last thing she could have wished for! After all, she has lost both her parents and her younger sister in a terrible accident. Ever since she is heartbroken and riddled with guilt. Why should she want to extend her suffering by living longer than necessary, let alone live forever?

Alas, as much as she tries to end her life, she finds time and again, she cannot. Her body is invincible and healthier than ever. A thousand years of searching for an antidote leads to nothing, including locating the mysterious Eight Immortals: legendary god-like beings who possess the secrets of nature.
One day she receives an optimistic clue: The Eight are about to gather to celebrate the Queen Mother, Xi Wang Mu’s birthday on the Western mountain paradise of Mount Kunlun. There, they will feast on the magical peaches which ripen every 3000 years so that they, once again, can extend their longevity.

Thus, Xian travels to Kunlun where the celebration in the Queen’s palace and her enchanting gardens are held.
Will one of the mysterious guests know of a way to end her immortality or will she have to live on until eternity with her painful memories?

Forgiving and loving yourself is often the hardest, but what if it’s the only way?

This is the third stand-alone story in The Lesbian Romance Mythology Series that covers lesser known myths from all around the world, retelling and reshaping them, and giving them lesbian twists.
Just as ‘The Immortal’ is based on Chinese myth and legends, the other two novellas, ‘The Cursed’ is based on an Irish myth and ‘The Taken’ on a Native-American tale.
In total there will be around 15 books covering many cultures around the world.
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